Thoughts.

Something's amiss. Things are just motoring along. I hate it when life becomes this monotonous. Well, it isn't that bad. Meanwhile, I'm hoping the guitar thingy just goes on fine and all the planned trips materialize. Life could get sunny once again.

Valentine's.

Yet another Valentine's Day has gone by. Here's wishing everyone out there everlasting love and peace of mind.

And Oh, I am still single. SINGLE!!
I am still single when even the unlikeliest of people whom I know are getting struck by Cupid's arrows. I, with all my tall aspirations and dreams about romantic escapades in exotic locations and wonderfully conceived ideas that could shame Bollywood any day , am still single and showing no signs of falling for anyone yet.
What's wrong with me? In my humble honest opinion about myself, there are few people whom I know who are more romantic and less practical than me. I guess my ideas about romance are above the reach of ordinary mortals. ( Now you know the problem, right?) I should console myself saying something good is in store for me. Ah, but when will it show up? The future is unpredictable and unchartered.

That was some illogical and senseless stuff written by a hopeless romantic who is still searching for his love. I hope it doesn't take a lifetime to happen. Obviously, I can't wait that long.

Meanwhile, the search continues...... and the frustration .....

Hartal.

Today was yet another Hartal in the life of God's Own Country.

Another exercise in futility aimed at gaining non-existent political mileage, making despicable public statements, performing shameful anti-democracy acts and still doing it all in the name of the common man.
Well, the common man isn't concerned; at least in God's Own Country.
God save His country.

The world is just awesome.

I can't stop enjoying life,
I can't stop living my life,
I can't stop learning new things,
I can't stop forgetting things which I learn,
I can't stop indulging in my vices,
I can't stop being good to all,
I can't stop reminiscing about the past,
I can't stop living in the present,
I can't stop dreaming about the future,
I can't stop making plans,
I can't stop botching up my plans,
I can't stop making silly promises,
I can't stop it ALL.

The world is just awesome.
I can't stop yearning for more.

A new start .. a new life.

Hyderabad is history. I will call it a beautiful phase of my life. It has taught me many lessons in life, given me new friends, shaped out my future plans. I will always remain indebted.

I don't know when I will be seeing Hyderabad again. The city played host to me for seven months and I, on my part, lavished on the hospitality on offer. The place deserved more, I should have explored more. My long laid out plans about exploring the interiors of Andhra have also remained stillborn.

I will miss Hyderabad and Kondapur. I hope I will see you both once again in my life.
Meanwhile, a new life starts...one which I would call the most crucial of my life. I'm back in Trivandrum. This is a new start. The Prodigal has returned, right :) ?

Back to square one ..

Life is so full of surprises !!!

Dude, you're back to square one.. You are always too casual about life. You have a devil-may-care attitude that would ultimately prove to be your downfall. You are too relaxed and easy-going.

Oh, really? Is it so? But, I don't care. Not anymore.

I quit and that's all there's about it. No big deal. I'm still living. I'm prepared to believe the last 7 months were good to me. Every experience in life must be good. I have come to know more about my inner self. I am at peace with myself. And for that, I will always remain indebted to my previous employer. Dear Employer, you have made me realize that one has to listen to one's heart to proceed further in life. You have shown me the importance of taking control of my life. Yes, I have indeed taken control. I'm on my own!!

Feeling down and out? NO!!
Sad that you are no longer working? NO!!
Depressed and morose? NO!!
Missing the money and the corporate life? Definitely NO, a thousand times over!!

I'm no longer an employed person. Yes, I managed to cling on to my job for more than 7 months; but I couldn't take it anymore. I am not a sulking quitter;but I have made my decision.

People will start talking. They will, eventually. There will be post-mortems and funerals, there will be counseling sessions too. I needn't be concerned, it's my life anyways. I am not answerable to anyone. Ha, I don't have to report to any manager or team lead, whose smile is perhaps the most artificial and betraying expression ever. Nor will I have to live out a lie. A corporate lie. I just don't fit.

I had made a decision long back, after considering the very various pros and cons associated with it. My head ruled over my heart. Almost always.

Not any more though. I fully understand the significance of my decision and the responsibilities that come with it. I'm prepared. I'm confident of doing well. I will always follow my heart.